i could never hate you no matter how much you'd hurt me. "you're making it impossible to survive"
it's like
i only hate people i don't know,
people i've spoken a word or few words to,
people i've never spoken to,
saw them on the street, on tv, you know what's up.
and
i lie more and more every day
i lie about everything. all the time really
she tells me to fix it but do i really mind
well she tells me a lot of things.
you do things before you think them through. fix it
you're a miserable person. you can never be fully happy, you know
( you used to make me happy ) fixitfixit
get over that guy it was five years ago for fucks sake. fix it
why are you so insecure you're just bringing yourself down fix it
omg i survived yet another year without killing myself l ol sylvia plath vladimir mayakovsky beatrice hastings jens bjorneboe
"i like being full of everything, but no one cares these days"
underneath the sky today i\'ve been dancing and it was so cold and i had glitter in my hair but i had no idea where it came from and one of them girls came to me saying \"you\'re doing okay\" and smiling and i almost peed myself laughing, and everything was red red and i felt like it didnt matter at the same time otherwise i would be dead already - where is my where is my where is my everything is so frustrating and beautiful
i dont know if anything matters anymore or if it ever will and if i ever got to grow up or maybe i am just refusing to realize what really is going on - wrong ways of doing everything is pretty much in my veins now
and i don't know but when we're alone i just flow
disappointments are alright.
and everything is alright, alright. i couldn't even talk; it's alright...